tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33317701450143418002024-03-05T16:15:31.463+08:00.the more you know, the more you don't know.miss zeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16726070989864825043noreply@blogger.comBlogger23125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3331770145014341800.post-43288454372724673502014-09-22T22:07:00.001+08:002014-09-22T22:07:14.763+08:00what had happened along the process?<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">sometimes, you wonder what had gone wrong in the education system. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">or in you.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">sometimes, you get so disappointed.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">and so much frustration.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">sometimes, you keep on asking yourself.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">sometimes, you ask yourself.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">what have i done wrong?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">or.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">what have i not done yet?</span></div>
miss zeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16726070989864825043noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3331770145014341800.post-51565983850036778522014-01-23T17:26:00.000+08:002014-01-23T17:32:52.418+08:00Aloha.<div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif; text-align: justify;">
Haihhhh it has been almost a year that I've stopped writing anything on this blog. Life is super busy I can barely make time to sit and write although I have so much to say and want you to read hihi.</div>
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Life has been good to me, though more hectic than ever. I'm now officially married (thank God, I feel so much calmer now) but I still prefer to be called 'Miss'. Hahah talking about issues on letting go the title as a single lady pffftttt.</div>
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There were times when I sat and stared at the screen, trying to find words that suited my emotion of that time. I feel teribbly sorry for <a href="http://cahayapetunjukku91.blogspot.com/">Yatt</a>; not long after my previous entry, I was told that she had lost her mother. What a tragic. I still remember waking up as my phone beeped next to my ears, just to read that her mother was gone. I typed and deleted few times - looking for the right words to say was not easy. I've been through such lost, and the last word I wish to hear is 'Sabar'. That's not the best word, people. Perhaps you could share things we can say for that matter. Because honestly, I'm still figuring it out. </div>
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Losing the ones you love is terribly depressing. It is not easy, it never will be easy. But life has to go on. We have to go on. I keep on reminding myself, that even though my dad is no longer with me - his blood is mine, he is me and I am him. With that, in a way he is still with me but not with the physical existence. Each
day passing by - I feel normal. But whatever that could remind me of my
lost would make me grieve silently. It feels like a cold pang to my
face, and I hate that feeling. I guess I will always feel like this.
Truth hurts. Forever.</div>
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Well, I hope you know what I mean. Yatt, and those who are facing the same thing - I wish you to be the strongest you can. You will only know your true strength only when you are tested. </div>
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Just smile.</div>
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miss zeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16726070989864825043noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3331770145014341800.post-22810756484532763232013-07-31T17:31:00.000+08:002014-01-23T17:32:33.273+08:00dalam menduga rasa cinta.<div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif; text-align: justify;">
Assalamualaikum.</div>
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Tiada kata yang mampu diucap tatkala mengetahui pemergian insan tersayang. Kalau untuk memenangkan diri sendiri pun kadangkala tak terjumpa perkataan yang sesuai, inikan pula bila kawan-kawan, sanak saudara mahupun pelajar saya sendiri yang merasai kehilangan.</div>
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Beberapa hari lepas, pagi saya dikejutkan dengan mesej ringkas daripada bekas pelajar asasi saya, <a href="http://cahayapetunjukku91.blogspot.com/">Yatt</a>. Terdiam sejenak memikirkan apa yang perlu dibalas. Nak disuruh jangan menangis - tak masuk akal. Nak disuruh bersabar - pastinya kesabaran dia sudah penuh di dada dalam mengawal diri. Semuanya menjadi serba tak kena. Yang terlintas di fikiran cuma satu; inilah ujian Allah buat kita - dalam menilai cinta kita pada Dia.</div>
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Saya sedih. Sebab dia kehilangan ibu lebih awal daripada saya kehilangan bapa saya. Namun janji Allah itu pasti. Setiap yang berlaku pasti ada hikmahnya yang hanya Allah saja yang tahu. Mati itu pasti. </div>
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Kehilangan ini pasti akan menjadi igauan ngeri buat dia. Saya sendiri masih sedih dan sebak walaupun tiga tahun sudah berlalu. Masa bukan penentu kerana bila kita kehilangan orang tua kita, lama mana pun pasti akan masih dihimpit sedih. </div>
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Dulu, saya sering menangis bila teringatkan 'bagaimana agaknya bila ibu atau bapa saya meninggal dunia'. Memikirkannya pun boleh buat merembes-rembes airmata. Ketika itu saya terfikir, mungkin bila ia benar-benar berlaku, separuh jiwa saya akan pergi, saya takkan mampu berdiri.</div>
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Tapi Allah Maha Kaya. </div>
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Saya masih di sini. Sedih, tapi kini lebih kuat. Sekarang saya tahu, 'What doesn't kill me will only make me stronger'.<br />
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Kadangkala, Allah menduga kasih kita pada Dia bila diragut orang yang kita sayang. Sebab sesungguhnya, telah dikata bahawa kasih sesama manusia, cinta sesama kita adalah sementara dan hanya pinjaman semata. Bila direnggut sekelip mata - apakah kita meratap bagai hilang semua? atau lebih menyembah menyedari bahawa kita ini sekerdil-kerdil manusia. Apa pun takdak - kata gaya orang utara hahaha. <br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Ecewah tajuk. <i>Suweettt</i> tak? Hahaha.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Sepatutnya sudah enak dibuai mimpi pada waktu ini, tetapi perut berdendang kelaparan (eh?) hahah. Mind you readers, I'm writing this half awake; hence the mixture of languages and the informality in writing.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Ahhh, biarlah saya nak menulis apa dan bagaimana pun. Jangan mudah menilai, okay? Saya sedang cuba menulis dalam bahasa ibunda. Sesuatu yang sudah lama ditinggalkan; maka kalau ada salah dan silap harap dimaafkanlah ye.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Sepetang saya berfikir tentang sesuatu. Saya rindu bapa saya (sobbsss). Kenikmatan kehidupan yang saya sedang lalui adalah hasil didikan beliau. Dan ibu saya (duuhhhh, of course). Betapa nikmatnya hidup saya - ada kerjaya, ada kereta (walaupun masih berhutang dan jenama tempatan aje hahaha), dan insyaAllah mahu memiliki rumah sendiri. Tanpa bapa saya berpeluang menikmatinya bersama saya. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Sedih, <i>uolsssss.</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Hidup saya dipenuhi nikmat dunia, tapi masih rasa sedih sebab tak dapat dikongsi dengan orang tersayang. Suatu ketika dulu, saya selalu berazam - nanti dah senang nak bawa mak ayah jalan-jalan, nak belanja diorang macam-macam. Nanti, bila dah senang.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Tapi Allah Maha Kaya - Dia mengatur segalanya. Bapa saya tak sempat merasa bila saya sudah sedikit senang. Belum betul-betul kaya, tapi sudah sedikit mampu nak belanja dan bawa berjalan.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Memang orang boleh kata, jadilah anak yang solehah kerana itu sumbangan saya pada bapa. Saya mungkin tak sempat beri dia merasa nikmat dunia, tapi saya boleh menyumbang dalam saham akhirat bapa saya. Benar, saya tak sangkal. Benar, saya cuba sebaiknya namun saya cuma manusia biasa. Saya teringin nak belanja bapa saya makan sedap-sedap, belikan baju, bawa jalan-jalan. Tapi saya cuma mampu berangan dalam kepala. Buat macam mana pun, bapa saya sudah tiada.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Sobbbbsss sedihhhh.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Paling sedih bila tengok orang teruja buat persiapan perkahwinan - bapa mereka turut serta teruja dan sama naik syeikh <i>shopping </i>di Nilai 3 (ehhhh hahahah). Saya dah tak ada bapa. Tak terbayang di waktu akad nikah bapa saya tiada. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Tapi mujurlah saya masih ada mak. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Mak saya <i>cool</i>. Banyak hikmahnya bila bapa saya tiada. Kami lebih rapat, dan mak saya lebih sporting. Lebih terbuka dan suka melawak. Betul-betul menggantikan bapa saya. Bapa saya memang loyar buruk dan kuat membahan (sounds familiar kan? macam I kan? hahah).</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Saya masih cuba nak membina kehidupan saya. Kalau dulu saya asyik menunggu konon bila senang baru nak belanja ibubapa - sekarang saya dah berubah. Saya cuba untuk menjadi lebih pemurah. Saya nak tengok mak saya gembira. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Saya belanja tiket pergi melancong mak saya. Duit saya tak banyak, tapi hati saya gembira tengok mak saya teruja; biarpun dalam hati pening fikir apa lagi cara nak tambah duit hahahahha.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Kalau anda membaca nukilan hati saya hari ini, saya ada sedikit pesanan.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Never wait for the right moment. Tak ada apa yang pasti dalam dunia ini kecuali mati. Ibu bapa tiada gantinya. Sibuk macam mana pun, mesti balik jenguk mereka. Jangan berkira; call them as frequent as you can. Bila dah tak ada, jangan jadi macam saya. Masih terkenang-kenang dan mengharap andai masa dapat diputar semula. I miss all the calls my dad gave me, almost everyday. I miss how he made me laugh with his repetitious jokes. I miss how he annoyed me so much with his remarks. I miss how we argued over small matters. I miss his comments on how I drove. I miss him talking to me over the phone - asking me each and every time when will I come back? I miss his laugh, his smile. I miss his pat on my back after solat. I miss cutting his fingernails. I miss his requests - for me to cook dishes he liked. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I just miss him badly.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I learn the most important thing in life. </span><span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">This lesson will surely be the most expensive one - I lost my dad, but I learn to love and to appreciate those who are kind to me, and to be more grateful with what I have. </span><span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Love your loved ones while they are still alive. Jangan tunggu. Masa tidak menanti kita. Kematian itu pasti. Penat macam mana pun, spend your time. Listen to them. Tenung muka mereka puas-puas. Hug and kiss them while you can. Say you love them again and again. NEVER WAIT.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Kalian macam anak-anak saya, walaupun saya masih muda (ehem!). Maaf kalau kadang-kadang saya terlancang bahasa, perbuatan atau apa sahaja. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Saya juga sedang mencuba mencari syurga. Moga saya, kalian dan sesiapa sahaja diberikan hidayah dan peluang menjadi lebih baik.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Moh kita tidur, anak-anak!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">After much struggling and sleepless nights, (we - lecturers are like zombies now), I'm done marking all scripts. However, I'm considered as halfway done since marks will be keyed in tomorrow and will be finalized next week. How time flies, huh? We all work like there's no tomorrow for the sake of our 'children'.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">During the marking period, everyone will be missing hahahah. Each and every lecturer has different preferable ways to get things done. Me? I'm nestling at home trying to avoid the outside world (rasa macam nak mengeramkan telur pun ada sebab tak boleh tinggalkan sarang ha ha!).</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">But life must go on so I was running here and there, dividing tasks (my expertise) so that they will be done on time. I have started my postgraduate classes so welcome more and more sleepless nights! -____-"</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">So far I'm happy with the marks. Don't worry, you will get what you deserve. I have to admit that I was offended by some students, but fret not because professionalism is my middle name LOL. I'm very professional when it comes to grading students. And if you know me well, effort means marks.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">The more effort you put, the better grade you will get. InsyaAllah.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Those who are unhappy with the grade, well - it's not easy to satisfy everyone. But before you guys decide to vent on me or accusing me for being unfair or whatever, think deeply and try to mirror yourselves.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Don't ask what have I done for you, but rather ask what have you done for yourselves? Is your effort sufficient? Have you given your best? Have you tried your best? Were you really sincere attending my classes? Did you say bad things behind my back? Eh eh that's <i>'mengumpat'</i> okay hahah.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">But I know my students are true Muslims. They don't do bad things, they didn't say bad things. Husnudzon. :) :)</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Allah is the Most Just. Honestly, I always have faith in Him. I know I'm just human and I can't escape imperfection - but having faith in Him make me feel so calm. I always pray to Him to give what's best for me, and for my students.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I hope you guys are enjoying yourselves to the max this holiday. Experience it while it lasts. Once you reach my age - holiday is no longer familiar.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Hihi I'm old. But young at heart.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Sleep tight all. I still need to revise few chapters for my next class. :) :)</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Those whom I noticed plagiarised for the assignment, you only get not more than three marks.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">dan saya berasa teramat sedih dengan sikap kalian.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Kecewa.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Biar bodoh, tapi jangan jadi penipu.</span></div>
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miss zeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16726070989864825043noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3331770145014341800.post-70538620147967000262013-02-20T14:30:00.002+08:002013-02-20T14:31:02.211+08:00happy holidayssss!<div style="text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">So do enjoy you break!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">While i'm cracking my head marking your papers.</span></div>
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miss zeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16726070989864825043noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3331770145014341800.post-25358709234990238092013-02-08T01:21:00.002+08:002013-02-20T14:30:40.890+08:00Good luck, all!<div style="text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Click <a href="http://islamgreatreligion.wordpress.com/2011/05/07/prayers-dua-for-studies-and-exams/">here</a> for good du'as.</span></div>
miss zeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16726070989864825043noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3331770145014341800.post-69903270970190294822013-01-30T17:38:00.000+08:002013-02-08T01:11:32.864+08:00English is a crazy language. <div class="separator" style="clear: both; font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif; text-align: center;">
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miss zeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16726070989864825043noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3331770145014341800.post-84770377915333506372013-01-22T16:20:00.002+08:002013-01-22T16:22:04.809+08:00Silenced<div style="text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Berkurun lamaaaaaa.. ku rasakannnn... lalalala.. Ha layan lagu dulu sebelum mula menulis bahaha. Entah tahu ke tidak budak-budak ni lagu lama. Maklumlah, cikgu ni orang lama ehermm ehermmm hahaha. Baiklah murid-murid, berikut adalah hasil perahan otak cikgu ye. Amboi galak cakap melayu. Maaf le cikgu cakap melayu sebab letih asyik nak speaking je nanti lupa bahasa ibunda ecewah kau alasan hihi.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">First and foremost, it is not easy to simply judge the situation. I could not say who is right and who is not as it depends on which view I am looking at. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">If I were to look from the mother's perspective, I would definitely do the same. As a mother, all that she cared was the well-being of her son. She did not want In-Ho to suffer more, and to a mother all that matters is the responsibility of taking care of a family. She wanted In-Ho to be more responsible towards his daughter, what more after he had lost his wife. Teaching art means you don't easily survive, so when you have the opportunity to earn a living, you are expected not to ruin the chance. I could see that his mother was actually wanting what was best for In-Ho. She thought that by ignoring the issue, In-Ho's life would be better.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">However, we cannot deny the fact that In-Ho was stuck in between the need to keep that job, and his responsibility as a human being. The idea of how someone could just keep their eyes close over the matter is almost absurd. As normal people, we are born with humanity and no matter how rough life is, humanity is not something to be taken away easily. He knew what was wrong, but he was helpless as he had to think of other things that would be affected if he decided to do something. Lending a hand means he would jeopardize his life and subsequently the life of his daughter. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I try not to judge, hence I'm looking at both sides. To conclude, I would say that the mother was not wrong because her intention was genuine. I believe that mothers actually do care for their children and mean no harm at all; but towards the end it is In-Ho who should decide what is best for him and his daughter.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">He had. He could choose to be part of the society and keep his eyes and mouth shut, or he could be a man with humanity. He cannot have both, no matter how much he wants it. In this case, he did have choices but it was not easy for him to decide. In the end, it was shown that he had chosen to be a man and was willing to bear the consequences rather than acted like nothing had happened. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I was definitely astonished with his courage. He knew what was going to happen to him but he took it as a challenge. What he said to his mother at the court was so true; he could not accept himself if he decided to leave the kids with no help and he knew by doing so, he was actually being a bad father for his daughter. In my opinion, he was actually just like his mother where his daughter's interests were his main reason of living. In addition, he wanted to be just, and he wanted to stand for what he believed. Humanity must not be subsided no matter for whatever reasons, and even more if it is for the sake of money. One must believe:</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Min-Su's action was a result of despair he had towards the law and the society. While it is understandable to be angry and frustrated, but I simply believe one must not take action with his own hands. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I know throughout the movie, we are shown with injustice and how corrupted the society is. However, settling the matter like what Min-Su did was unacceptable for me. Why would you end your life just because you want to have the revenge? Instead of killing myself, I would prefer if I work hard and leave that place, with a determination that I would do something to the society; educate them rather than punishing them all. I may not be able to change the world, but I know I could start with myself. </span></div>
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<span style="background-color: #fffff2; line-height: 24px; text-align: left;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><i>For each one are successive [angels] before and behind him who protect him by the decree of Allah . Indeed, Allah will not change the condition of a people until they change what is in themselves. And when Allah intends for a people ill, there is no repelling it. And there is not for them besides Him any patron. (Ar-Ra'd, 11)</i></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I strongly believe in this therefore what Min-Su did was not impressive to me, yet predictable. Many of us, although we keep on saying how we accept what has been destined to us with <i>redha</i>, did we really feel that? If so, why so many of us prefer to <span style="background-color: white;">take the law into our own hands; we judge and we punish people without thinking what is beyond. We label each and every person we meet. We do this almost everyday without guilt, as if it is a norm in our life. </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="background-color: white;">It was hard for me to accept what was done to him and his brother, and I pity them for being victims, and I know it was even harder for Min-Su, but how I wish they were stronger to fight the battle from within and did not take the short cut, which was taking their own lives.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I think I'll answer question 4 and 5 later. Don't have much time to do them all at one time hihi. Hope this helps, ok students? </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">p/s: you can refer to this <a href="http://thefilmemporium.blogspot.com/2012/08/2012-koffia-review-silenced-hwang-dong.html">website</a> if you wish to read the review.</span></div>
miss zeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16726070989864825043noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3331770145014341800.post-45545908812165176462013-01-09T00:42:00.001+08:002013-01-09T00:42:09.421+08:00Hello ya'lls.<div style="text-align: justify;">
Okay, first and foremost - pardon me for using informal word for my title. </div>
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I know it has been quite some time I wrote something in here. Sorry sorry sorry. I just wish I have more time to do everything. I'm a very ambitious person, but most of the time, time doesn't permit me to do as much as I wish.</div>
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If you are new to my blog, hey welcome!!</div>
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Don't expect grand writings in here; this is just another place for me to ramble and nag things off hihihi. Well, I'm just a human being after all so mistakes are inevitable. Nothing new in my life but my semester is overrrrr! </div>
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If you ask me for my opinion, I would suggest you to not watch both hahahaa. <i>Sebab ada </i>scenes censored so I'm afraid you won't be able to digest them. <i>Yelah, kang kata cikgu ajar bukan-bukan pulak LOL. </i></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">The plot moves quite slow, so this movie is definitely not aimed to those who can't wait. I almost fell asleep hahahaha. Nevertheless, in between being a sleepyhead and the love I have for literature, there are few things I'd noticed that I feel I need to share.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">The very first thing that captured my attention was when Pi's dad said something (more or less, I can't remember the exact lines) - you can't practice many religions (beliefs). Having too many means you believe nothing. To me, it means that you can't decide what's best for you therefore you need more than one to assure or as a backup if something doesn't work. And it shows that this kind of people, who don't really explore a religion may feel that it is not sufficient to feed their hunger for knowledge or curiosity. That one religion is not complete. However, if we look closely, I notice something else. It shows how a boy - an innocent boy feels like all religions are the same. It's about love that all these gods teach him. When we were just kids, we were so innocent and we thought of nothing complicated. Life was so easy and straight forward then; but as time passes by we started to be shaped by what we see, listen etc, and this starts to look and be complicated and we start to think so much over something; and confusion is everywhere. How people can really change over time. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">When Pi stranded on the ocean with Richard Parker, it reminds me of some friends I had in my life. Pi was upset when Richard Parker left without looking back at him, that he didn't feel the same way as Pi did - Pi felt thankful for Richard Parker as because of him he could stay sane and alive, and he thought somehow, perhaps Richard Parker would consider him as a 'friend' but he was just another tiger. A tiger is a tiger, and Pi was not more than just someone who fed him while they were together. A friend with benefit, I would say. I started to reflect, that Richard Parker is a good example of friends who would be there just because they need you, and would just leave when you no longer feed the purpose. I have many of that, how about you?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">The moment when another storm hit them, and Pi had almost lost his patience - I was so sad for that as I could imagine how despair I would be if I were in his shoes. I understand his resentment as he was tested one after another. Many of us always wonder, why we are tested with so and so - but that just makes us having more faith in God. He questioned why him, and why God did this to him - typical questions we always ask to Him, don't you think? Soon after the storm, he landed on an island - it was so beautiful until Pi decided - this is it. That he would stay and live on it. That God had given him what he wanted. But he was wrong. Although that was what he wanted, and God gave him just that - it wasn't the best for him. The island is carnivorous and it kills. What a great message being told in this scene. We ask from Him this and that, He may grant our wishes but sometimes, it may not be the best for us. When things didn't go the way we want them to be, we become angry and we question Him; we feel abandoned, that God is unjust but we forget:</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Wohaaa. It has been a while since my last entry. I've been tied up with so many things - mostly with my studies and work. Although my last entry was my rage on students, nevertheless it never ends there. Each and every semester, there will be more challenges coming. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">It's never an easy task to educate children. I refer my students as children (though they are older) because in a way, I honestly feel like I'm responsible towards their future. I want them to have better lives, and I want them to be able to survive.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">The world is cruel, and boy if they aren't well prepared they will definitely be drowning. Yet, life has so much to offer and they have to realize that despite the evilness, there are beauties in it. <i>Ish apalah yang I merepek ni hahahaha.</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Up to one point, when I expect too much I tend to be heartbroken because they are just behaving like children. Students, they lie to your face. And sometimes even rude. Questioning and giving statements that may hurt your pride and heart. But what can I do? They are just humans. How I wish they would be more sensible before they do things and say things. But I myself was once young, and stupid. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I may not be religious in the eyes of my students, but I mean no harm to them. Takkan ada guru yang dengan sengaja mahu menyesatkan anak didiknya. I may not use the right method or perhaps my way of teaching differs than others - but that's just me.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">As much as it is unfair to ask them to accept me the way I am while I'm declining to accept them the way they are, so I'm offering my humblest apology to all my students that I was so furious at yesterday.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">But again, please be reminded that I am different and I teach differently. I may be graduated in TESL, but my journey and aim do not revolve around that matter only. I want students to have broad mindset, and be practical. Life is so much more than what you learn from the textbooks.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">To begin with, you must learn how to respect people. Bagus jika awak berniat untuk menegur, untuk menjadikan kehidupan lebih baik. Tapi biar berhemah caranya. Mempersoalkan sesuatu, atau menyatakan pendapat tanpa mendengar keseluruhan hujah pada saya cetek orangnya. </span><span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Before you can basically judge people, give them a chance to defend or make things clear. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Dunia seorang pelajar matlamatnya pelbagai. Selain menimba ilmu berkaitan subjek yang diambil, pelajar juga perlu membina jati diri sebagai pertahanan diri yang kuat. Pelajar harus didedahkan dengan persekitaran yang mencabar sebagai persiapan untuk dunia yang semakin hari semakin mencabar. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Kita minta awak kerja dalam kumpulan ada wanita, ada lelaki bukan sebab kita nak awak bergaul bebas. Bukan sebab kita nak suruh awak berzina. Kita nak awak belajar bagaimana mengawal diri bila persekitaran begitu wujud nanti. Kita nak ajar awak macam mana nak guna bahasa tubuh. Nak ajar awak bagaimana komunikasi berlaku hanya dengan tubuh badan. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Pemikiran kita jangan disingkatkan. Benar, semua pun sepatutnya mengaji al-Quran dan patut mengamalkan, memahami segala isi di dalamnya. Awak hebat, saya akui. Saya pun tak sebagus awak sebab saya cuma mengajar Bahasa Inggeris. Tapi kita orang Islam; Islam itu agama indah. Jangan dicemarkan dengan sikap terus menghukum tanpa penilaian yang mendalam.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Puas saya berfikir dari semalam - sayakah yang tersilap? atau awak? Tapi hari ini saya dapat jawapannya. Kita dua ada pendapat masing-masing. Saya hormatkan pendapat awak. Awak cuma anak muda yang masih jauh perjalanannya. Masih banyak kena belajar. </span><span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">But all that I ask, is for you to begin with respecting others. And seek for more knowledge. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Dan saya, mungkin patut belajar terima pemikiran awak tu. A bit hard, but still doable. May you get whatever you wish in life, boy.</span></div>
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this entry is dedicated to those students who have become the cause of my disappointment of the day. </div>
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all this while, we often hear students complain this and that about their higher institution. lecturer tak bagus, sistem teruk, assignment banyak, hostel mahal fasiliti tah apa-apa bla bla bla. it's a never ending story when it comes to their complaints. i won't say anything about it because i fully understand sometimes what they said is nothing but the truth. however, how about us, lecturers who teach them wholeheartedly but are taken for granted by them? to whom can we complain?</div>
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we must retain our professionalism. to be angry means we are not professional. fine. but we are not god. we are far from perfection and we are just humans. when somebody trigger the anger, sometimes we just react just like other humans would.</div>
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what do you expect us to do, when students mess things up with us? when you are told not to come in late - you never listen. when you are told to not to text nor to call after office hour - you never listen. when you are told to introduce yourself properly when you text and call us - you never listen. when you are told to do your assignments and hand them in on time - you never listen. when you are told to study - you never listen.</div>
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so how else can we talk to you? we talk nicely, we laugh together with you, we make fun and we have fun. then you forget who we are and start to treat as with less respect. you forget where you belong.</div>
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i'm not talking in a sense that i'm older nor i'm a lecturer therefore i am more superior than you. no. but please behave like adults if you do not want to be treated like children. you don't want us to be angry and start screaming our lungs off - do behave yourselves.</div>
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i know many students hate the subject i teach. ENGLISH. but please, i'm not even delighted to teach to those who feel like they have been forced to learn. if not because i sayang anak bangsa i, sebangsa seagama - i would just ignore you. seriously, i'm very much capable of doing that.</div>
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i'm not angry at you because you tak pandai. but i am very angry because inilah anak melayu kita. malas mencuba. tak nak berusaha. i tak marah you buat salah. mungkin pada you cara i tak kena, but sometimes i'm out of any way to teach you. it disappoints me sooo much that you guys cannot see how important is this bahasa penjajah yang you all benci sangat ni.</div>
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memang bahasa penjajah. fine, i know. tapi you can't deny the fact that it's important and apa yang penting WAJIB dipelajari. WAJIB, i repeat. so no excuses. you want me to help, but you don't want to help yourselves. so how? do yourselves a favour by changing your attitude. you can never learn a language over the night. it takes time. i take years to master this language. and up till now, i am still learning.</div>
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i neh sedaya upaya nak tolong. nak bagi extra mark, suruh participate program bulan bahasa pun nak tak nak. suruh buat assignment paling simple dalam dunia, ada je yang buat nak tak nak, tak pun lagi bagus tak hantar terus. due date bulan lapan, tetiba nak jumpa esok nak submit assignment. what the whaaaaaaat?</div>
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lepas tu fikir kesian lagi ni, nak jugak tolong students walaupun masing-masing perangai macam tahi. mintak WRITE an essay. means karang la esei tu sendiri. tajuk simple, "what have i learned in the first semester". 250 perkataan je. SPM pun 350-360 words tau. ada jugaaaaaaaaakkkk hamba Allah copy paste. bahasa mudah, WRITE AN ESSAY. BUKAN COPY AND PASTE ANY ARTICLE YOU FOUND ON THE NET. </div>
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konon nak tolong pelajar jimat, tayah print kertas so email je. i dah pesan, on the subject put down your name, matric no and your group. SO THAT I KNOW YOU. email kau tah hapa-hapa namaaaa, do you expect me to know who you are? and lagi comel, ada student tanya nak tulis esei dalam group ke sebab ada perkataan group. adohaiiiii. everything has to be in details baru students nak faham ke? logikla sikit, takkan tulis esei dalam kumpulan grrrrr.</div>
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seriously, for now i feel like i'm done helping you guys. if this is how you behave - don't blame us the LECTURERS for not having good grades. you should be looking at yourselves first.</div>
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growing older has definitely changed the way i see things. and each time i think of how i love my job and why i love it so much - i manage to brush off all the unpleasant things that tag along with the job. it's not easy to work with people with differences.</div>
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my clients are my students. i know some may say that my monthly pay comes from them, therefore i shouldn't do things the way i like. but sometimes, it's not the way i like it but rather i was left with no choice but responsibility.</div>
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baru-baru ni, i told my students that it's the worst midterm result in history. many fail the exam, despite being told how they should answer each and every question. i notice that most of them were unhappy with the result, but none came to ask me why did i say it's the worst in history.</div>
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two, they seemed like they didn't understand the questions. sebabnya, pembuat soalan menggantikan perkataan dalam text dengan synonyms. and many actually left the questions empty. MANY. whhhhhyyyyy?</div>
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three, many didn't provide relevant supporting details for the paragraph writing. and to my surprise, there were also many students who chose to leave it blank. oh myyyyyy... whyyyyy?</div>
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four, they are just unlucky because their answers were not like in the answering scheme. i know you can justify saying that it's logic and what not - but i just couldn't do anything because it's fixed and it will be unfair to other students. so, yeah. blame me for trying to be as just as i could.</div>
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students selalu rasa dimalukan when i scold them or membahan diorang dalam kelas. some say i favour orang ni lebih la apa la. without realizing it that the world works that way. the real world is unpleasant and can be so damaging, but where else we can go but facing it with solid heart and motivation? i usually takkan membahan or kacau student yang i dah nampak will be fine or sometimes i just let them be sebab i rasa tak perlu. but to those yang selalu i cari pasal tu, please forgive me. mungkin cara i salah until you feel the other way around.<br />
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all that i care for my students is for them to be able to be strong enough to face the world. i want them to be able to protect themselves by letting go, or by pushing all the negativity away, or by making the bad becomes good, turning them into inspirations rather than demotivation. i see them as my children though i'm young *eheeem*. i just don't want them to be easily hurt. life is, you know.<br />
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if he's reading this and he feels so much intimidated with my way saying that the two girls scored better than him - i hope he would get it that it was not my intention at all to humiliate him but more of provoking him to prove he can do better.</div>
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i have no idea why i feel so connected to him, but i do sense that if he's not being careful - he would just be the other boys i've known; which is not positive so it's bad since he has the potential.</div>
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boy, you are smart and i know you'll do well - but do keep yourself on the ground, keep yourself the way you should be and you'll be greater in future. with your potential, i know you'll be someone on top but make sure you carry the right attitude with you.</div>
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people with success are people with humanity and wisdom. you can't lack either one of them; or else you are just a body with no soul. </div>
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perghhhh so deep my writing today bahahahaa. whatever, i love you all nevertheless.</div>
miss zeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16726070989864825043noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3331770145014341800.post-60101291075856953252012-08-26T11:03:00.002+08:002012-08-26T11:04:50.161+08:00Sunday, and love-hate relationship.<div style="text-align: justify;">
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miss zeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16726070989864825043noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3331770145014341800.post-44952415947414034102012-08-23T23:46:00.000+08:002012-08-23T23:46:07.075+08:00midterm results.i'm done marking the papers.<br />
but haven't sum up the marks for each section yet.<br />
that one can be done later.<br />
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i miss working.<br />
am i a workaholic now?<br />
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hello uolssssss hihi!</div>
miss zeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16726070989864825043noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3331770145014341800.post-89951113634747466772012-08-21T22:47:00.001+08:002012-08-21T22:47:37.835+08:00How i spent my raya. <div style="text-align: center;">
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miss zeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16726070989864825043noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3331770145014341800.post-19285129727279725172012-08-18T14:30:00.003+08:002012-08-18T14:30:54.628+08:00Salam Lebaran, all.<div style="text-align: justify;">
Assalamualaikum.</div>
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ecewahhh mentang-mentang nak buat ucapan raya, maka entri pun dimulakan dengan salam baru nampak Islamik sikit ahaaakkkssss haha.</div>
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straight to the point, i'd like to wish all of you readers (if any, ehemmm2) selamat hari raya aidilfitri! </div>
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as a human being, flaws are inevitable. i humbly apologize to all of you, if i've offended or hurt your feelings, ego and pride. most of the time, it was not my intention at all. like i said, i'm just a human being and can never be perfect.</div>
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i hope that this raya will be better than before, and that your duit raya sangat banyak so that can treat me as well bahahahahhaaa. </div>
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drive safely, enjoy yourself to the max - but be careful. and don't forget the spelling tests after raya *what a spoiler, huh? hahahaha*</div>
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ohhh yeahhh. it doesn't feel right if i don't invite you to come. so please do. but do let me know for arrangement, okay?</div>
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happy happyy happppyyy uolsssss!</div>
miss zeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16726070989864825043noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3331770145014341800.post-80289133171224179152012-08-15T01:13:00.000+08:002012-08-15T01:15:22.468+08:00Delayed.<div style="text-align: justify;">
I'm supposed to write my raya wish but i'm just too tired to even think of what words shall i put in order to really exude my real intention ecewaaahhh banyaklah alasan hahahahaaaa. </div>
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I think i'll do it tomorrow, insyaAllah. On another hand, i notice that eating rice makes me sleepy and sloppy. Like now. But then it could also be due to the fact i slept less than three hours last night, and i spent the whole day commuting from one place to another, and it's already late hihihi. People said sufficient sleep helps to retain younger look but with the life i have, if it's true - i bet i look older than my age soon hahah. </div>
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I had so much fun just now. My ex students treated me dinner and we talked and laughed like nobody's business. But somehow i feel bad because i couldn't really get to talk in equal turns to all. I wish we actually had a private room where the table was round and could fit us all. Sorry sangat if any of you terasa and what not. I wish i can split myself but that's just absurd isn' it?</div>
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Heh konon tak ada tenaga and idea sebab so sleepy tapi terpanjang pula entri hihihi. Shall try to sleep now. I need to look younger so it wouldn't feel weird to be among youngsters and act like one. I can really forget my age when i'm surrounded by younger people bahahahaa. </div>
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Oh btw, i'm typing this using my phone, so please excuse me if there are errors whatsoever. Till then, muahxxxxxxxx. </div>
miss zeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16726070989864825043noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3331770145014341800.post-27416784094768201772012-08-14T01:16:00.002+08:002012-08-14T01:19:41.526+08:00when i feel less motivated.<div style="text-align: justify;">
who says teaching is easy? it is, to be honest. but the hardest part is to be listened to, and to be appreciated. and it has never been easier to educate.</div>
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i've been in this field for quite some time, and i'm still in love with it. sometimes, as i'm just a normal human being, i do feel unhappy and lethargic of my routine - but i love my students to bits; even though they may not realize it. i have fun being with them, and i love to treat them as friends; but of course with certain boundaries.</div>
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at their age, they are prone to make mistakes. although i can actually be considered as a matured adult, i do understand because i was at their age once. i know how it feels, and i know how devastated it is if you are not in favour among teachers or lecturers. i was one of that kind, so i know what i'm talking about.</div>
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due to that vulnerability of students to make stupid mistakes, i tend to just let them be. of course, i would be mad too - but it wouldn't be too long. my principal is very simple; you scratch my back, i'll scratch yours. so be kind to me, i'll be kind to you.</div>
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tapi kadang-kadang budak-budak can also drive me crazy. however, when you think about their age and their level of conscience, what can you expect from their age? so it's understandable. for me, doing a mistake for the first time is okay. but repeating the same mistake again and again is stupid. yet, you deserve to be forgiven but the impression stays heheheheee.</div>
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entah apalah aku bebel ni hahahaaa.</div>
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i was actually nak tulis pasal how touched i was today. in this blessing month of Ramadhan, i got many invitations from students to break fast together. seronok thinking how they feel so berbesar hati to invite manusia picisan macam aku ni hihihi. i always have this kind of thought yang aku ni lecturer tah pape, mengajar tah pape, cakap tah pape, perangai tah pape. maybe the students will agree to this yang aku memang tah pape, but they still invited me so okaylah. be tah pape pun orang okay, how nice life is treating me hahahahhaaa.</div>
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i wonder kalau aku tak tah pape, would they still like me? ke mereka sebenarnya jemput aku sebab nak bodek. hoh. i'd better ask them the truth hahahaaa.</div>
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sebenarnya aku nak cakap (asyik meleweeehhh tah kemana-mana je aku ni; so easily distracted hahah), kadang sejujurnya aku rasa begitu hilang semangat bila pelajar asyik menguap di dalam kelas aku. well, aku pun faham bahawa belajar grammar so bosaaaaaan sebab dulu pun aku pernah kena jerkah sebab tertidur dalam kelas bahahahaha. itu yang kadang-kadang aku cerita cerita cerita pasal tah hapa-hapa dengan harapan at the same time i can provide them few new words to enrich their vocab. entah diorang perasan ke tak ke asyik cakap aku suka cakap merepek bahahahahaa.</div>
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hoi students, if you are reading this - berhenti mengumpat nanti ilmu tak berkat *tetiba emo* hahahahaa.</div>
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before i end my aimless writing, just wanna let you know that i love my students - and having you greeting me, texting me once in a while, visiting me and overly excited shouting my name when you see me - you've made my day.</div>
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there's nothing more a teacher can ask, than to be remembered. it's the best form of appreciation. </div>
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oh yeah, and to be praised how wonderful i am in class and how much you miss me and it was fun to be in my class bahahahaha *sentimen puji diri mesti kena ada untuk menaikkan self-esteem ehem eheeemmmm hihihi*, i would love you even more hohohoho.</div>
miss zeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16726070989864825043noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3331770145014341800.post-36445541906906278912012-08-06T00:40:00.000+08:002012-08-14T00:58:02.426+08:00look what i've found.<div style="text-align: justify;">
while i was managing my other blog and deleting another (berapa banyak blog nak ada daaaa), i stumbled upon this piece of writing. it was written by me in 2008. lamanya! and i don't even remember i wrote that hahahaaa. reading it back brought memories, bitter and sweet. i remember when i was young and naive, and i still couldn't believe i am where i am now. how time flies, and how i've changed over time. i'd like to paste it here, just so you know and so that i would still remember how young i was and how honest and lame my writing was hahahaaa. but then, i think it's more on mushy type of text, btw hihihi. it's in my mother tongue, hope you enjoy laughing while reading hohohoho.</div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-size: x-small;">Yeppa yeppa.<br />
Saya suka baca blog orang.<br />
Saya suka tulis blog juga.<br />
tapi selalu saya tulis dalam bahasa inggeris.<br />
bukan, bukan tak suka bahasa </span><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-size: x-small;">malaysia</span><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-size: x-small;">.<br />
benci pun bukan.<br />
tapi kali ini saya nak </span><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-size: x-small;">cuba</span><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-size: x-small;"> tulis dalam bahasa
ibunda saya.<br />
mungkin bunyinya sedikit janggal, jadi maafkan saya.<br />
<br />
berbicara tentang bahasa </span><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-size: x-small;">malaysia</span><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-size: x-small;">.<br />
ada suatu hari, seorang lelaki kata saya tak berjiwa melayu.<br />
hanya kerana saya kata bahasa inggeris boleh membantu anak melayu lebih
'global'.<br />
katanya saya bercakap begitu, tanpa memikirkan anak bangsa saya yang tidak
pandai berbahasa inggeris.<br />
tapi itu bukan maksud saya. saya juga bukan dari bayi terus pandai berbahasa
inggeris.<br />
ibu bapa saya walaupun kacukan macam-macam, tapi kami bercakap bahasa </span><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-size: x-small;">malaysia</span><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-size: x-small;"> di rumah.<br />
buku-buku saya kebanyakannya dalam bahasa ibunda. pernah ada 'mat saleh'
tinggal dengan kami untuk 3 bulan, dan ketika itu saya di tingkatan 4 atau 5,
masih saya tergagap-gagap tatkala berbicara dan kami macam ayam dan itik. saya
seperti orang gila meracau-racau, tangan tergawang-gawang semata ingin
menyatakan 'kupas dulu kulit bawang tuh'.<br />
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tapi Tuhan itu Maha Mengetahui. keputusan SPM saya, bahasa inggeris saya yang
terunggul, mengatasi subjek yang lain. haih letih-letih saya belajar (seadanya)
tapi sedikit pun saya tak sedih. walaupun kalau dilihat pada keputusan saya,
selayaknya saya membawa diri masuk ke hutan. mungkin sudah tertulis rezeki saya
bukan di situ. dan Dia lebih tahu. Saya dapat masuk universiti, belajar jurusan
yang sangat asing. hari pertama menjejakkan kaki di kampus, saya malu
menyatakan kursus apa yang saya ambil pada kawan-kawan jurusan lain. malu
dikata angkuh. malu jika orang menyangka saya hebat sedangkan saya sendiri
masih tercari-cari apa yang hebat tentang diri sendiri. 5 tahun belajar,
alhamdulillah. siapa kata anak melayu tidak boleh belajar bahasa asing? dan
siapa kata belajar bahasa penjajah membuatkan kita hilang jati diri? saya masih
saya; masih patriotik bilamana membicarakan masa depan anak bangsa sendiri. masih
begitu bersemangat ingin mengubah pandangan belia-belia yang bahasa inggeris
itu ibarat belajar terbang. belajar sebagus mana pun akan tetap sukar untuk
terbang dan takkan boleh terbang. lucu. itu yang saya rasa pada mereka-mereka
yang kalah sebelum berjuang. belum pun </span><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-size: x-small;">cuba</span><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-size: x-small;">, atau pun baru mencuba
yang cubaannya ibarat bermain di gigi-gigi air - sudah kata tidak boleh. jadi
bagaimana mahu maju?<br />
<br />
minggu ini, sudah dua kali saya meluangkan masa bersama teman paling akrab
saya. seorang yang sangat berpengaruh bilamana saya akan membuat keputusan.
pandangan dan pendapat dia sangat menyenangkan hati, walaupun menyengat dan
kadang kala membuatkan saya berkecil hati. kebenaran itukan pahit dan tak
selalunya indah. tapi saya suka. cuma dia yang berani menzahirkan keburukan dan
kelemahan saya dengan kata-kata. sekali lagi, saya suka. saya suka dia. kami
berbicara tentang kerjaya dan masa depan. saya suka melihat dia bila
berkata-kata. suka melihat dia terdiam sebentar, berfikir sejenak dan kemudian
memberikan pendapat paling bersih dan jujur. dan kerana itu, hati saya terbuka
semula untuk mencari apa yang saya mahu. terima kasih, kaseh. tanpa kamu, saya
masih teroleng-oleng mencari hala tuju. saya macam bot yang ditambat di jeti.
ke kiri, ke kanan dan adakala seperti tersasar. tapi kamu pegang saya. sambil
berkata 'kamu macam anak kecil, jadi pegang tangan saya supaya kita boleh
berjalan seiring'. berbunga-bunga hati saya. seronok. terlambung-lambung bot
kecil ini. terbuai-buai ditiup angin kaseh. suka. suka.<br />
<br />
masa dalam kereta. kamu minum air vitagen. saya tengok. menanti untuk kamu
memberikan saya botol kosong supaya saya boleh buangkan. dan kamu bertanya apa
saya sudah minum bahagian saya atau belum. dan saya menjawab tidak. dan kamu
kata sudah tiga tahun kita bersama, saya masih menanti untuk dipelawa.
semestinya itu saya. pengalaman masa kecil membuatkan saya jadi takut. kamu
tahu apa maksud saya. sudah saya jelaskan tadi. selepas bertahun kamu kenal
saya, baru ini saya bercerita. cerita yang selalu buat mata saya berat dan
sarat dengan airmata. tapi kamu pegang tangan saya. dan saya sikit pun tak
menangis. hati saya walaupun sayu, tapi saya tahu saya ada kamu. tolong jangan
pergi. jangan.<br />
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oh panjang sudah nukilan pertama kali ini. kalau difikirkan, masih banyak yang
ingin dinyatakan. tapi cukup untuk kali ini. saya terlalu merindui teman paling
akrab saya.<br />
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<span style="font-size: x-small;"><i><span lang="EN-GB">Ku tutup mataku</span></i></span><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
<i>Dari semua pandanganku</i><br />
<i>Bila melihat matamu</i><br />
<i>Ku yakin ada cinta ketulusan hati</i><br />
<i>Yang mengalir lembut</i><br />
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<i>Penguasa alam</i><br />
<i>Tolonglah pegangi aku</i><br />
<i>Biar ku tak jatuh</i><br />
<i>Pada sumur dosa yang terkutuk</i><br />
<i>Dan menyesatkan cintaku</i><br />
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<i>Andaikan ku bisa</i><br />
<i>Lebih adil pada cinta kau dan dia</i><br />
<i>Aku bukan nabi yang bisa sempurna</i><br />
<i>Ku tak luput dari dosa</i><br />
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<i>Biarlah ku hidup seperti ini</i><br />
<i>Takdir cinta harus begini</i><br />
<i>Ada kau dan dia bukan ku yang mau</i><br />
<i>Oh Tuhan tuntunlah hatiku </i></span></div>
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miss zeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16726070989864825043noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3331770145014341800.post-36188372447814965772012-08-01T21:13:00.000+08:002012-08-14T00:36:20.318+08:00a new beginning, i hope.<div style="text-align: justify;">
heyya.</div>
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fuuuhhhhh *blowing dust and spider webs*. i've been neglecting this blog for quite long due to time restriction and too many things to handle and what not *excuses*. but never once i feel like stopping to write. writing is among my many passions in life and i find it therapeutic. i can instantly lose my anger once i put it in writing. but that's not the point of me writing here, tonight.</div>
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i find it boring to make this an educational blog and there are times i got stuck at thinking what to post in here. if i babble about what i do for living, that's gonna be boring for readers. but hey, let's be selfish sometimes and make this as a place to whine teheee.</div>
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so from now on, i would just write whatever i want. let it be educational, telling how i feel and think etc. and since my another passion is to photograph stupid things, maybe i can include them also in here. i don't expect any comments as i know i don't have much readers - but heck i don't give a damn ngehehehe.</div>
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as the beginning of this so called new blog, here'a a photo for you. </div>
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whoever can guess what it means can redeem the prize from me later. see you when i see you!</div>
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